Before you read this I wanted to let you know that I’m putting this out there to hopefully break the stigma around mental health, promote awareness and hopefully help others suffering.
A lot of people know how open I am about my own mental health with both ups and downs on social media and I want to continue this to help people…….
Yesterday I woke up with a headache and did my best to calm myself and get rid of it but it didn’t work, it went slightly but I still had it.
Because I enjoyed the last Thursday session I was at and because I can only attend in the school holidays I forced myself to go even if I didn’t feel 100%.
With the headache not being too bad and hoped the fresh air, socialising and football would help the headache and this contributed to my decision to go.
I don’t think the bright lights on the road helped and by the time I got to Conisbrough I felt awful.
I did my best to calm myself to give myself the best chance of staying even for 30mins but I couldn’t.
I’m sorry for not saying hi or bye to most of the players, I wanted to leave without fuss.
This is when things got worse, on the way home I had a bad anxiety attack and had to pull over twice in Conisbrough.
My breathing changed, light-headed, feeling sick, sweating, really hot and tingling in my arms and legs.
It was an awful drive home with seemed to take hours, I almost pulled over more times and even rang someone to help but I just wanted to get home asap and I didn’t want to bother anyone.
On the second time of stopping, I actually took off my base layer top in the car as I was dripping with sweat, feeling really hot and it made me feel claustrophobic.
I got home safely, but I wish I hadn’t gone through that experience and I wish I hadn’t pushed myself now.
I’m sorry to the players for not being able to stay.
I’m not feeling great this morning, my head hurting and I’m feeling quite down after the anxiety attack and not having a great week in general for stress.
If you’re suffering mentally in some way, please know that you aren’t alone and things can get better with the correct support, please reach out to someone, family, friends, colleagues, us, GPs, pharmacies, support groups, and charities.
DON’T SUFFER ALONE!!
#AnxietySucks
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